Thursday, July 11, 2013
Help Me Quit Smoking, I bought a pack tonight..
Even 48 hours later, I feel like I need a cigarette. Like I am missing something, as if the tobacco gave me something the natural air could not. After so many years I was used to smoking a cigarette after different things. Waking up in the morning or from naps, before and after meals.. At work that small cigarette break felt nice, I wondered why I would even stand out there now, so I didn't.. More time on the clock I guess.
I'm gonna keep writing this blog about my battle to quit smoking because after so many years, I'm not convinced I can do it but I am seeking your support. I think with others behind me, I can overcome this. All these other stresses seem to be hitting me right now too. One of three teeth that need to come out have recently begun hurting severely. Seems I will be going to the free clinic on Friday to get it removed.
Plus on top of that, I found out today my work took a private letter I addressed to them (Corporate) and they gave the letter BACK to the (Local) place I work. Now I'm very confused as to what I should do. I can't believe they forwarded my private letter to them after what I wrote in it! Talk about wanting a cigarette, this will put any man to the wall! I want a cigarette so bad!! Even 48 hours later I know the chemical draw should be gone. Damn I need help, only who do I trust? I can ONLY trust myself it seems!